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[necromants]

[Zvei's room is mostly untouched. It looks about the same as it did when he first arrived, with very little to imply he used it for anything more than sleeping and storage. There are plenty of items neatly sorted throughout the room, placed out of the way and generally positioned to be as unobtrusive as possible. Nugget and Drumstick, the two chickens Zvei received from the offerings, have a pen located closer to the garden and thus have been moved out of the room.

(The bathroom is a bit of a different story; there's traces of blood here, where Zvei clearly showered and tried to clean up after the murders, but there's also the bloody toga he fought in that he just left in here?? Okay.)

Notably, the desk is a bit more cluttered. The gemstones he's been gathering from the offerings are there, though the onyx one is out of power, so don't expect to use that one for anything useful. The sapphire gemstone likewise is out of power, but the others still have enough juice in them for a few more special attacks and/or spells. Well, except the topaz gemstone, which was used to try to heal Alex... that one's running pretty low. There's a small vial of black nail polish that is running dangerously low as well. His staff is leaning up against said desk.

There are also three letters, two addressed to people here, but one extra one with the name "Lorraine" neatly penned where it's folded over on itself.]

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LORRAINE

[necromants]

I suppose I owe you an apology.

To be perfectly honest with you, I'm still not sure why I told you my plans. I could have lied. I could have pretended that I learned my lesson; that I was a changed man who truly wanted to help the Aeli, nothing more. You might have even believed me. Or at the very least, you might not have seen my betrayal coming and prepared for it. I might still be alive if I hadn't told you.

But for some reason I did, and I can't say I regret that. It's complicated, I suppose.

It's far too little, far too late, I know. But I truly am sorry for what I put you through, for as little as that's worth.

Well, as sorry as I can be, anyway. Which is likely worth even less.

-Zvei

SEYMOUR

[necromants]

If you're reading this, then I've likely already explained myself. I doubt a letter found after the fact will be of much help or serve much purpose.

But I find myself writing it anyway, because if there's even a chance that this is left unsaid, I doubt I'll be able to truly rest peacefully.

For twelve long years I have struggled with not knowing who I am and why I am like this. I've felt isolated, clinging desperately for something I was never sure I would truly be able to reach. I had the chance, once. Had I succeeded, I would have merged fully with the Aeli and become a god of my world - and likely ended it. I wouldn't have hesitated.

I didn't hesitate tonight. I did what I had to do to reclaim my memories, just as I've always planned on doing.

But sitting here now, knowing that the stage is set and I have no choice but to play the part I chose, I find myself feeling troubled. I would sacrifice the rest for my memories in a heartbeat, but you?

You made me feel something. You made me happy, I think. I enjoyed our time together. I wonder if it was even more than that, I wonder—

[Whatever follows here was forcibly crossed out so dark it's impossible to read.]

Out of everyone I've met, all those I've known over these twelve years... you were the only one who mattered. You accepted me as I am, without trying to change me or make me a better person. You trusted me with so much... And this is how I repay you.

Take care, Seymour. I wish I could have been a better person for you. You deserve better than what life has given you.

If I had a second chance, maybe I'd stay "Zvei". You made me feel like I was worth something, memories or not.

-Zvei

RIFUL

[necromants]

I hope the show was to your liking. Take at least one of the gemstones I held in my possession - I imagine many of the others will want them, but I'd prefer you kept one for yourself. The black and blue ones have been used up, but the other five should be acceptable.

Take care, and don't join me any time soon.

-Zvei