[He's quiet for a long moment and then his shoulders begin to shake.]
That's a stupid question, isn't it?
[It's obvious that he's laughing now; soft, and somewhere between deeply amused and wry.]
Because I love you just as you are. I wouldn't care if you never change. I love the Amaya before me, and that's not changing, no matter what. That's how you feel about me, isn't it?
I just want you to be as happy as you can be. That's what you want for me as well, right? Wherever that ends up taking me.
[Amaya listens for a little bit, letting him sort himself out; patience has been something of a virtue of hers, and she's more than willing to let Zvei sort himself out and take care of himself. Slow but sure, a hand of hers comes up and winds itself in Zvei's hair, gently running through it in a manner that's just like how Aneirin does to hers.
...It's a little more awkward when she does it, but that first part gets an easy answer.]
Of course I will. You mean so very much to me, and you...
[But then Zvei speaks again, and he may as well have just struck her directly in the heart with how direct it is. Hearing him direct those words towards her when she doesn't entirely know if she deserves them is...
It makes Amaya's heart beat, and the idea that he could love her even without improvements, even without the ability to smile or feel anything positive towards him--she doesn't doubt him for a moment, she never has. For as smarmy and strangely distant despite his open smiles and words as he's seemed, he's given her all of his honesty. She doesn't doubt his words for a moment, and perhaps that's what's making this so nice.
What a beautiful thought.]
...Yes. That is exactly it, in fact; I love you no matter what form you take, because at the end of the day, you are still you. You are still the man I would gladly talk with about even the most inane of things, the one I would trust by my side as much as Aneirin, the one I would adore above all others.
To hear that you think the same of me is...not shocking, but it brings a strange feeling with it that I cannot identify. I want to cherish it, like I cherish you.
Even if nothing changes about you...I'd let the world burn before I see you hurt.
[That hand in his hair earns a soft sound of approval and his arms wind tighter around her for a moment before he finally pulls back so he can look at her.]
You really do say the most wonderful things to me.
[This might be considered sarcasm, but he says it 100% straight. He thinks it is very sexy of her to let the world burn tbh!!!!]
It's something I'm going to have to consider further before I can safely arrive at an answer for what I'll do going forward. But... hearing this does help tremendously. It's strange, in all these years I've been pursuing my memories, I rarely ever stopped to think about what else I'd want out of life.
[...Well, that gets Amaya to flush a lot, actually, dear god she's turning red--]
Goodness. You make me sound like a treasure that you've been looking for, for so long...
[...]
I...like it. Being considered so precious to you, as to be...something else you find enjoyable, in this life of yours. It...means, very much to me to hear that...
[This feels...different, to the kind of flustered she'd usually get around Zvei, honestly. Not quite as denial heavy, but still, so embarrassing...]
But I am...glad, to be of assistance to you. Please know that much, no matter the path you choose.
[He says, without even a hint of embarrassment or hesitation.]
For the first time... I feel like it's actually alright to just be "Zvei", because "Zvei" is someone so precious to you. It's more than I ever could have asked for, and yet it's also everything I've ever needed.
I'll figure out what I want to do going forward, but no matter what... I want you right here by my side. I don't know what I'd do without you, truly.
[...THAT JUST MAKES THE FLUSH WORSE, HOW IS IT EVEN WORSE WHEN HE'S BEING GENUINEEEE
Amaya's just going to use one of her hands to try and hide the bottom half of her face a bit??? It's fine, this is all fine--]
...Likewise, honestly. I had been so lost without you before, even if I did want to move forward...having you here and by my side means more than the entire world to me, Zvei. Even more than I could have expected myself capable of, truly.
[...]
You...really are positively beautiful like this, I must confess. You're practically radiant.
[The flush - or maybe her reaction to it, or maybe even the words themselves - earn a bright, pleased laugh. A little too short and sharp, but exactly what you've likely come to expect from Zvei.]
A testament to your influence! I didn't think I could feel this way before I met you. And yet here we are.
[There's still the concern of what will happen in the future. Will he continue to feel this radiant? Most of his emotions dull quickly with time, but he hopes this one doesn't. He never wants to feel any other way ever again.]
I'm glad though. That I can return the favor - that I can do so much for you as well, Amaya.
[...Ugh, even his laugh is cute. Amaya finds her gaze averting a bit, and when her stare goes back to him she's...]
...Believe me when I say the feeling is mutual. It is...a feeling I have long denied, due to everything about me. I imagined that no one would want to deal with such a thing, when most days I feel I barely even count as an adjusted human being. If I could not even love myself, how could I love another?
But it's very simple, truly. I...wish I had realized that a long time ago, but finding it here and now with you...it...is so very nice.
[Still, Amaya's gaze goes back to Zvei's lips and she finds herself shy all of a sudden. Of course her boldness would escape like some kind of myth now--]
...Do you...mind if we kiss again? I want to keep enjoying this moment, before everyone else's arrival. I...want to feel that light haziness and simply stay close like that again, if you'll have me.
Now, now, you aren't allowed to say that kind of thing about yourself while I'm around. Why, if anything, your unique feelings are what drew us together in the first place - I'd say that they're exceptionally important and not in a bad way at all. I do wish you could feel what I do in this moment, but knowing that you feel something different from the norm for me makes me very happy.
[It's a soft reprimand, a reminder that she matters to him at the very least, and he won't hear her put herself down like that. She likely feels the same about him as well, which means he'll need to be a bit more careful with how he refers to himself... But it's a worthy price to pay. He understands exactly what she's saying - how could he love someone who barely even exists, let alone understand how to give that love away?
And yet here they are. They'll fumble through this together, just as they have everything else here.]
Of course I don't mind! We can stay right here, just like this.
[And then he (thankfully) shuts up in favor of kissing Amaya again.]
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That's a stupid question, isn't it?
[It's obvious that he's laughing now; soft, and somewhere between deeply amused and wry.]
Because I love you just as you are. I wouldn't care if you never change. I love the Amaya before me, and that's not changing, no matter what. That's how you feel about me, isn't it?
I just want you to be as happy as you can be. That's what you want for me as well, right? Wherever that ends up taking me.
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...It's a little more awkward when she does it, but that first part gets an easy answer.]
Of course I will. You mean so very much to me, and you...
[But then Zvei speaks again, and he may as well have just struck her directly in the heart with how direct it is. Hearing him direct those words towards her when she doesn't entirely know if she deserves them is...
It makes Amaya's heart beat, and the idea that he could love her even without improvements, even without the ability to smile or feel anything positive towards him--she doesn't doubt him for a moment, she never has. For as smarmy and strangely distant despite his open smiles and words as he's seemed, he's given her all of his honesty. She doesn't doubt his words for a moment, and perhaps that's what's making this so nice.
What a beautiful thought.]
...Yes. That is exactly it, in fact; I love you no matter what form you take, because at the end of the day, you are still you. You are still the man I would gladly talk with about even the most inane of things, the one I would trust by my side as much as Aneirin, the one I would adore above all others.
To hear that you think the same of me is...not shocking, but it brings a strange feeling with it that I cannot identify. I want to cherish it, like I cherish you.
Even if nothing changes about you...I'd let the world burn before I see you hurt.
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You really do say the most wonderful things to me.
[This might be considered sarcasm, but he says it 100% straight. He thinks it is very sexy of her to let the world burn tbh!!!!]
It's something I'm going to have to consider further before I can safely arrive at an answer for what I'll do going forward. But... hearing this does help tremendously. It's strange, in all these years I've been pursuing my memories, I rarely ever stopped to think about what else I'd want out of life.
[He grins, tiny fangs visible.]
But I've definitely found it. I've found you.
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Goodness. You make me sound like a treasure that you've been looking for, for so long...
[...]
I...like it. Being considered so precious to you, as to be...something else you find enjoyable, in this life of yours. It...means, very much to me to hear that...
[This feels...different, to the kind of flustered she'd usually get around Zvei, honestly. Not quite as denial heavy, but still, so embarrassing...]
But I am...glad, to be of assistance to you. Please know that much, no matter the path you choose.
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Because you are.
[He says, without even a hint of embarrassment or hesitation.]
For the first time... I feel like it's actually alright to just be "Zvei", because "Zvei" is someone so precious to you. It's more than I ever could have asked for, and yet it's also everything I've ever needed.
I'll figure out what I want to do going forward, but no matter what... I want you right here by my side. I don't know what I'd do without you, truly.
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Amaya's just going to use one of her hands to try and hide the bottom half of her face a bit??? It's fine, this is all fine--]
...Likewise, honestly. I had been so lost without you before, even if I did want to move forward...having you here and by my side means more than the entire world to me, Zvei. Even more than I could have expected myself capable of, truly.
[...]
You...really are positively beautiful like this, I must confess. You're practically radiant.
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A testament to your influence! I didn't think I could feel this way before I met you. And yet here we are.
[There's still the concern of what will happen in the future. Will he continue to feel this radiant? Most of his emotions dull quickly with time, but he hopes this one doesn't. He never wants to feel any other way ever again.]
I'm glad though. That I can return the favor - that I can do so much for you as well, Amaya.
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...Believe me when I say the feeling is mutual. It is...a feeling I have long denied, due to everything about me. I imagined that no one would want to deal with such a thing, when most days I feel I barely even count as an adjusted human being. If I could not even love myself, how could I love another?
But it's very simple, truly. I...wish I had realized that a long time ago, but finding it here and now with you...it...is so very nice.
[Still, Amaya's gaze goes back to Zvei's lips and she finds herself shy all of a sudden. Of course her boldness would escape like some kind of myth now--]
...Do you...mind if we kiss again? I want to keep enjoying this moment, before everyone else's arrival. I...want to feel that light haziness and simply stay close like that again, if you'll have me.
May we...?
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[It's a soft reprimand, a reminder that she matters to him at the very least, and he won't hear her put herself down like that. She likely feels the same about him as well, which means he'll need to be a bit more careful with how he refers to himself... But it's a worthy price to pay. He understands exactly what she's saying - how could he love someone who barely even exists, let alone understand how to give that love away?
And yet here they are. They'll fumble through this together, just as they have everything else here.]
Of course I don't mind! We can stay right here, just like this.
[And then he (thankfully) shuts up in favor of kissing Amaya again.]