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𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑡𝑬π‘ͺ𝑹𝑢𝑴𝑨𝑡π‘ͺ𝑬𝑹 ([personal profile] necromants) wrote2025-11-01 09:01 pm
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-02 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
...I imagine you wouldn't. No offense, of course.

[But for what little it's worth, Amaya does listen. She can't help but be reminded of someone long past, as she tries to think about the sort of person who would befriend him. Or at least try to. Someone overly optimistic, maybe.

...

Her gaze goes a little distant at the thought, to memories she had long left behind. They served no purpose now, what with the girl in question being dead and gone, but...]


...I wish it were the same for me. I've heard some inane things, you know, from them. That it's okay to be who I am. That I'm not broken, I just need a helping hand. That I can do better. That my demeanor is nothing that can't be improved with practice and intention.

[Bitter, bitter, bitter, the nastiness is tempered down a little by Amaya's own force and her inability to express it, but oh.]

Does it feel almost mocking, for you as well?
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-02 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
...Likewise. Most are simply not keen to say it to my face, because they think I am like other leaders of the various territories in Quercetem. That I, of all people, have a commanding presence...truly, it's something that shocks even me.

It is an image that serves me, however, alongside my reputation.

[As for what that is, she's not quite inclined to say yet. But she does look to him properly, though without pity in the slightest. It really is strange, she has to admit. She knows that hers is just a toll placed on her, but to hear that from him...]

All be told...nor have I. My situation is a little unique, in that regard but...it is strange, to know that someone else faces this issue.

...It is not unwelcome, however, to...know someone else faces it.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-02 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
That makes two of us. I usually do not get the option to not 'pretend'. Aneirin will worry, but he'll at least eat any of the negativity that remains to sustain himself. And anyone else will just give me a look that implies they pity me.

[It doesn't matter, at least. How strange it is, to feel so free in this moment.]

...Should our stay somehow be extended, you may seek me out anytime you wish. I always offer confession to those lost, because I can offer them a truly neutral ear to speak to. I shall offer that to you, as well.

[...Still...]

My reputation, however...it is akin to something of a monster, I suppose I can say. To something feared and reviled, by a good portion of Quercetem's population.

I do not mind it. It keeps inane problems out of our territory.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-02 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course.

[She doesn't have any problem talking about Aneirin, really. Confused by him, and eternally so. But he's easy to talk about. She tips her head a bit when he says he'll take her up on that offer, acknowledging that, but the rest...]

...I... [...] Well, it's a moot point, here. But I have something sealed within my body, that was once a creature who attempted to end the world I come from. A terrifying dragon that sought to end all human life as one would know it.

She's still feared, to this day. It is a fact that make people fear me to a certain extent. Hate me, in others.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-02 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
...Somehow, I didn't expect you to say that. My mistake.

[It's neutral as ever, almost a touch wry, but it's very notably not derisive in the slightest surprisingly.

As for that question...Amaya pauses a bit, considering. There's...much to this story, admittedly, and she's already told so much to a stranger. A stranger who gets what she is, admittedly, but...]


...It is a bit of a long story, my child. But I can sum it up as this; my father was the one who gave her the means to attempt to destroy our world. and I...was made to pay for her failure to do so.

[...It's a half truth, at least--]
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-03 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
...You are possibly the third to mention that. It is...well. It seems like it is an unfortunate verbal tic I have picked up from my father; is it truly that unusual to hear...?

[She genuinely sounds curious and...confused. She thought all leaders did that? ...Maybe not Princess Maribel, but--

Amaya does nod, when he says that much. She's thankful for the lack of pity, at least.]


You would be correct. She made the choice for me, in that regard, and I...simply try to do all that I can to live in defiance of her wishes. I know not if I do a good job at it, but it does not matter.

For those sins...I will atone my whole life, for them.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-03 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
Most of them do not believe that.

[It isn't sharp, when she corrects him; perhaps it lends credence to the fact that she isn't telling the whole truth of the situation, but...

Penance can't undo the past.

She knows. She knows damn well that it's true. Amaya has known this for a damn long time, that all she's doing is putting a bandaid over the big gaping wound over Quercetem that the Dragon's influence left behind. The idea that no matter what she might do, that it will never be enough to earn forgiveness, to earn some sort of better life, to earn something better that she never had the opportunity for is...]


But I...want to be better, even if I cannot feel it. I want to prove to myself that I can do better, if I put my nose to the grindstone. I will be better than their thoughts. I will be better than their assumptions and their wishes for my blood.

And I will be better than her wishes that I simply fall for the same tricks my father did.

[There's a surprising amount of intensity to her tone when she says all of that; driven, though lifeless. Determined, yet devoid of passion. As if all that exists is a perfectly white line, a path forward, and Amaya will tread that path with no hesitation.]

Even if it changes nothing, I...perhaps long to spite those people.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-03 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
I will. I will not settle for anything less.

[...It's strangely empty feeling, to hear him say that much to her, even with the caveats. Maybe if she could feel anything at all, she could smile. She could thank him, sincerely, maybe. The Dragon is gone from her and she still can't feel anything.

It's...strange, though Amaya ends up neutralizing. Going back to her normal and tipping her head at Zvei's words.]


...Thank you. [It's as neutral as ever, though something in her gaze has softened a fraction. That will have to be good enough.] I have found it...hard, to have motivation after my Father died; I lived under him for most of my life, before Aneirin found me and took me in. To live on my own terms is a new experience. One I have to keep finding that motivation for.

But so long as I live, I intend to keep seizing it.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-03 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
[Amaya nods at that, content to let that conversation go; there's a lot she hasn't told him, but it's...nice to be seen. To be heard and understood.

As for Aneirin, though...Amaya's look goes out to the distance, but her gaze softens. Still neutral, but perhaps the closest thing to fondness she can feel.]


Aneirin is an interesting fellow, all be told. A demon with horns of gold and a gaudy fashion sense, he's probably the most vain man that I know. There isn't a single second he isn't adjusting something about his attire--he wants no hair out of place, no piece of jewelry smudged, and he wants to look beautiful at all times. He's a demon who feeds off of the misery of others, from what I am to understand. It simply...leaves in a wave of black, absorbing itself into him and making him appear almost radiant when he feeds.

[...]

...He's also incredibly kind. He...has a tendency to look out for others, worrying after them and taking care of them. Aneirin is usually the one who takes care of my hair, and helps clean our shared quarters when I am too busy to do so myself.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-04 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
They do...admittedly, the realm where Aneirin comes from is very much outside of Madide's jurisdiction. I do believe it may simply be a matter of his realm having demons with powers like that. I wonder how deimori and demons differ, now...perhaps Aneirin will find his way here, and we can talk about such things. I'm certain he would find it fascinating.

[Amaya tips her head a bit, though, at that second statement. Definitely not wrong, at least.]

It does. I have asked him multiple times if he has ever considered leaving; he has said no all of those times. The sustenance I provide him is second to none, so he says.

And how funny it is. He usually gets it from simply talking to me, and encouraging me to air out my frustrations. I find I cannot fault him, when it is so easy for him to stay fueled and beautiful as he wants.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-04 03:38 am (UTC)(link)
We do, yes. I...cannot feel much about it, but I would not trade Aneirin's company for anything in the world...I think. That must count for something.

[But ah, Zvei's gotten distracted again. By probably one of the weirder things to explain, but it may shed some light on the 'outside of Quercetem' comment...]

Madide is the name of the... [Hm.] The best way I can describe it is that...well, based off of the religion that most of the worlds it encompasses follows, it is the collective name of the worlds that the Creator and Granter have created amongst themselves, or so it has been told.

There are many theories as to what this truly means. Whether it be lands separated by a near insurmountable sea, or lands separated by magic leading to entirely different places...it is unknown.

I only truly know of this because of some of the people who have found their way into Fefello Caelum, who were not born in any of Quercetem's lands.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-05 05:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Indeed. At least, that seems to be the running theory; it would explain the vastly different stories I have heard. [Amaya taps her chin in thought as she tries to think about what she's asked, before coming back with a nod.] A woman who consistently stops by to trade for supplies, for example, comes from a place known as Nusquam; she apparently leads a squadron of fellow women that help eradicate crime from the streets and...seas, if her eccentric talk is to be believed. Much of it I find quite confusing, though her powers are unlike anything I have ever seen.

She utilizes some sort of weapon that I have never been able to get the name of, but it seems to be a long...object which sort of acts akin to an automatic bow and arrow? But it shoots something much smaller and deadlier at the target.

And she is but one of a few people with circumstances like that. A few people came from Eluvies, which has fallen on hard times from what I am to understand.

[So while Amaya's knowledge of said worlds is sort of minimal, there's at least proof to that theory of multiple ones existing.]

But regardless, it does make matters quite interesting. Not that Quercetem needs it, with various quarreling powers both human and not at the helm.
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[personal profile] fefellocaelum 2025-11-05 09:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmph. [It almost sounds amused, but unfortunately, much like everything Amaya can't express, it's way too monotone and the intentional inflection is off as always.] You may not, but I can promise you, it seems to be more of a headache than it's worth. It's why I've never even given thought to seeing if there's a way out; I've too much to deal with as is. Leave it to the ones who have that curious spark.

But it truly is no trouble. You'll have to tell me more about Emirre, at some point; I must admit I am quite...curious about it now, I think.

[...]

Or at minimum, it would not be an unpleasant waste of time.

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